No sé que decir...

Me siento mal, desde que me levanté tengo esa sensación de no querer abrir los ojos y mirarme al espejo... siento mi estómago inquieto, un nudo atorado en la garganta y ganas de llorar... no creo que pueda llegar a sentirme peor... si pudiera desaparecer, lo haría. Pero creo que tampoco me sentiría mejor...

Wonderwall***

**TO MY WONDERWALL**

Today is gonna be the day

That they're gonna throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you gotta do

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word was on the street

That the fire in your heart is out

I'm sure you've heard it all before

But you never really had a doubt

I don't believe that anybody feels

The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk along are winding

And all the lights that lead us there are blinding

There are many things that I would Like to say to you

I don't know how

Because maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after all

You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day

But they'll never throw it back to you

By now you should've somehow

Realized what you're not to do

I don't believe that anybody

Feels the way I do

About you now

And all the roads that lead to you were winding

And all the lights that light the way are blinding

There are many things that I would like to say to you

I don't know how

I said maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after all

You're my wonderwall

I said maybe

You're gonna be the one who saves me?

And after all

You're my wonderwall

Said maybe

You're gonna be the one that saves me

You're gonna be the one that saves me

You're gonna be the one that saves me

My nightmare...

Camino con los ojos cerrados esperando no caer... con las manos intento esquivar lo desconocido... es en realidad mi vida... siempre a ciegas... siempre a gatas por el piso, tratando de huir de la realidad.
Hay algo que me está doliendo mucho, algo me falta. Es la noche más bonita que he tenido después de tanto tiempo, y solo me bastó un correo y un respiro para darme cuenta.
Aunque, por otra parte, hay algo que aún me causa dolor, o tristeza...
A veces cierro los ojos, cierro mi mente, y dejo que mi espíritu se eleve... es la única forma en la que puedo estar tranquila...
Me duele respirar y saber que he dejado a alguien sin aliento.
Duele estar así... sin ganas de vivir, sin sueños ni esperanzas... con el corazón marchito, sin lágrimas, sin nada... me duele saber que me he destruido, que he destruido lo que quiero.
No soy buena, extraño a mi mejor amiga... pero soy tan miserable que hasta a ella la he perdido.
Soy mi propia pesadilla...